A few weeks back I posted this on my Instagram page. I was blown away by the outpouring of encouragement and thoughtful responses from both friends and strangers alike.
I have always known I wanted to be my own boss. Maybe it has something do to with the fact that both of my parents worked for themselves, or that I am an INFJ (Myer's Briggs). I prefer to work solo or one-on-one, rather than large office environments. At my last job, my 10 hour days were filled with patients, paperwork and teaching back-to-back nutrition classes. I would come home and want a medal for being able to stay awake with Justin past 9pm...
At 27, it worried me that I was actually in a career field I loved, so shouldn't that be good enough? Shouldn't I feel happier? Then I remembered it was not the work but the work environment that left me feeling depleted during the week, and anxious on the weekends. Sundays were often just a reminder of another long week ahead. I would think, "how the hell am I going to manage this career-lifestyle for the next 30+ years?"
As the months past, I started to get a nagging feeling, "Or you could start your own practice, better serve your clients, and have more time doing things you love, with the people you love." I would day dream for a minute about it, and say "yes, I will do that...someday, when I am a little older, smarter or more ready."
I'm not sure what hit me exactly, maybe realizing high school graduation was a decade ago, or that I only have a couple years left in my 20's. I suddenly understood I am never going to feel ready for this leap. If the past 10 years went by that quick, what about the next 10?
I started making lists of all the things I wanted to do differently with my clients, that would better serve them...
Bring people to the grocery store, teach them how and what to shop for. I had so many clients at the hospital that had no idea how to even pick out ripe produce.
Go to clients homes and do a cabinet clean out, of food products, cleaning products and toiletries.
Show basic, hands on cooking skills and teach simple tricks for batch cooking.
But I still wasn't sure that I was ready yet.
Then one day I was listening to a podcast, and the interviewer asked, "What impact are you here to make? Who are you here to help?" I got goosebumps, a lump in my throat and a couple of tears escaped out. Why? Because I know my answers to these questions. I am here to help people get their physical and mental health in order, so they can go out and make their greatest impact. For most of my clients, it is not about lack of nutrition education, rather, it is helping them uncover the roadblocks that get in their way from feeling physically and mentally well. My job is to help remove the roadblock(s) or to find a different route to get them where they want to be.
Once I had this feeling it was harder to ignore it. I remember having a few discussions with Justin, close friends and family. The consensus seemed unanimous, "Well, then what are you waiting for?"
Two months have past since I put in my notice, and a month since I have left. Truth is I have had a roller coaster of emotions. Somedays I am high on new business opportunities, other days I feel like I am in a foreign country, where I don't speak the language. But, for the first time ever I am not thinking about what's next, if it's lunch time yet or when my next vacation is. I have never felt so immersed in the present moment. I blink and the day is over, or I forgot to eat lunch. While I acknowledge I have a lot to learn and figure out, I know I can and I know I will. The most rewarding part so far, is realizing that with each little nudge forward, I am designing my dream life.
What holds you back from going for your biggest dreams? What is one small nudge you could make today to get a little closer to it?